My senses are feeling raw
emotions worn to a puddle.
Speaking feels out of character
words drool, a muddle.
Sleep, a spotty affair
only moments at a time.
Eyes seeing her image
making words to rhyme.
Hunger rages on
food won't stay put.
Odd achy feelings
from head to foot.
Another sighting today
calls from the park.
A look a like woman
just a fading spark.
Worries bout her health
put insulin in the fridge.
Needles in her purse
gaps like a bridge.
Helplessness yells a blank
self blaming creeps out.
Mental aerobics center stage
heart wants to shout.
Walked our path to the park
skipped a rock on the lake.
A goose staring at me
seemed as if it had spake.
What secrets linger
should have known before.
Straining, pondering
tallying every score.
Aligning the good and bad
which result will we face.
Joy seems years away
thru this horrible disgrace.
I count blessings I have
Judy remains star of the show.
But love shared openly
creates room to grow.
Few understood us
but we couldn't care less.
I walked a lighted beam
knowing I had the best.
Judy holding my face
wiping tears salty track.
Whispering in her way
she's got to come back.
False alarms...depression
fills emotion's sinking ship.
Praying I can keep going
trying to keep my grip.
Senses totally worn out
emotions in utter awe.
This whole affair
has my nerves raw.
Arms want to flail
bring this all to an end.
Nothing left in my soul
I've got to spend.
Del Cano 2007 June
My emotions have been flared
erotic thoughts cram my mind.
With her missing like she is
doesn't seem I'm being kind.
I feel a tremendous need
to cuddle her and hold tight.
These rushing thoughts
wore on me all thru the night.
Every fiber within my body
calls out to where she is.
Bitterness pumping thru my veins
stinging like a sloe gin fizz.
Nothing seems quite real
a horrible nightmare of a dream.
My soul is spilling thoughts
emotions racing to extreme.
That helpless feeling hovers
dangling like a giant balloon.
Never moving away from me
praying she'll show up soon.
How can I be having thoughts
to the heights of erotic shores
Missing her thru this mystery
so painful by the scores.
Hear my yelling soul
screaming for relief.
Tears pouring relentlessly
racked with pain and grief.
With her still missing
erotic thoughts seem unkind.
My emotions are flared open
feel like I'm losing my mind.
Del Cano 2007 June
Fear strikes thru me
since you went away
Your empty chair looms
like a dark haunted day.
Coffee in the yard
I went to get a refill
Upon return, you're gone
space empty, so still.
Looked around, empty
heart filling to a burst
Couldn't believe you vanished
leaving this yeomen thirst.
Stopped being selfish
where have you gone?
In a matter of moments
faded like morning dawn.
Judy is upset as well
like you knew she would.
You were showered with love
as much as two people could.
What happened in you
or could it have been we.
Whatever the problem
its nothing I could see.
Fear strikes thru me
stabbing deep inside.
A morbid sort of ilk
like someone has died.
Not one word, no call
days plans dropped to the ground.
Tho spring breezes are kicking
there's stark stillness around.
Where have you gone
why did you leave unspoken.
No good-bye, see ya later
just suddenly and broken.
Our hearts are pounding
crying for some explanation.
Tears blinding our vision
from treacherous frustration.
What, why, how,
open ended questions dangle.
My breath strains
we were so entangled.
I've got your ID with me
are you not who we thought
Is there another story
we should know or sought.
Fear strikes thru me
not knowing, driving me insane.
Spirals of past moments
only enhances the pain.
No one vanishes in a moment
or evaporates like a cloud.
Nor fades like a broken video
leaving hearts beating loud.
My soul is screaming
find peace in your empty chair.
Your cup, sitting like a monument
reminds me you're not there.
Where have you gone
where can you be?
Why did you leave
as fear strikes thru me.
Del Cano 2007 June
I am deeply massaged
when her eyes smile on me.
Rubbed to a salacious level
with soft fingertips feathery.
Senses have been awakened
to tunes, till now, never heard.
Whisper of breath on my face
soft flutters like wings of a bird.
Am risen to mountainous delight
when embraced by her glory.
The rubble of words always fail
to tell the true tale of our story.
It is a phenomenon that she
chose me to love and share with.
Thru decades of life's resonance
still not convinced its not a myth.
I've totally been massaged
by her smiles of a blissful cloud.
Before all the world, I'm loving her
I'm here to "Shout It Out Loud".
Del Cano 2007 June
I studied many of your pictures
as well many words you've written.
When its been put like that
no wonder I had been smitten.
Actually a lover's touch in words
a special friend beyond a doubt.
So many emotions still hang
love is what its all about.
We've found others to fill the gap
tho space remains for our own.
Like a top cut of meat freshly sliced
we've still got the flavor of the bone.
Perhaps one day down the road
we'll finally get that real touch.
Embrace in the flesh of reality
what I've longed for so much.
Life dangled us thru its sets
might I say it took us thru phases.
Now that time is washing the bay
seems we're still turning the pages.
She asked me how much was left
of what I once had called just mine.
Its like a continuous ache
knowing it won't heal over time.
Shall I call it a gap of sorts
a hole which remains right there.
She appreciated my honesty
the thought of fingering your hair.
For so long I could taste you
my tongue craved your fare.
Target dreams sweating me
awaking to find you not there.
Life kicked my ass real good
you, my savior and friend
kept your hand extended
till what might be the very end.
If it is or maybe not
please know you remain my queen.
A royal sort of majesticness
ever aglow with your beam.
I say this with honesty
tho my world is torn apart.
You remain a precious one
ever tucked deep in my heart.
Del Cano 2007 May
Time's ticking by fast
the day is nearly at an end
been waiting patiently
for a call from my friend.
Decided after all this time
would count on her till the last
But now time marches by
and seemingly quite fast.
Never wished to doubt her
tho not one time has she won.
Here I am running out of time
with much of my future done.
We differ greatly handling business
I am not used to the last minute
but she holds on to her methods
seemingly with no planning in it.
I won't yell nor fall apart
if this proves my final slide.
Just give her a big hug
be thankful for the ride.
I'll step on to whats there
whatever mess I have created
Huge errors in judgement
too late for change, belated.
As I step into the darkness
can't help but view her face.
Loving her was a previledge
tho trustinig her a disgrace.
I refused to give in
allow the facts to tell the tale.
Everything she had promised
did nothing but come to fail.
As I see my depressed state
nothing but a failure of light.
She and I on different plains
weather mid day or in the night.
She never showed the focus
of one who truly cared
I held on to empty promises
as if making a final dare.
Oh well, guess I can't argue
I placed my bets all wrong
Loving her and keeping hope
till the last note of the song.
Del Cano 2007 May
My senses takes a spin
from the aura of her scent
and sail to the starry skies
as if were heaven sent.
Reminiscent of a rose
radiating with lustful fumes
which gathers other aromas
to a hearty sensual bloom.
Her kiss but an invitation
to a sultry morsel bite
A fancy box of chocolate
and wine to sip at night.
She smiles a radiant glow
a picture of pure lust.
No artist rendition
might stir me to a fuss.
I am struggling to tell
the effect she has on me.
Her demeanor and poise
poses reverently.
My senses takes a spin
my body trembles too
Just the aura of her presence
erupts me thru and thru.
Like the heaving of a volcano
her affect is just as strong.
Every move is an invitation
for my eyes to follow along.
A tasty treat to absorb
my mouth in a constant drool.
And when she makes love to me
I'm returned to lovers school.
All I can do is sigh
at the wonder of her loving me.
A special bouquet of flowers
I treasure ecstatically.
Del Cano 2007 May
